VACATIONS

Vacations were rare and didn’t begin to last 5 years. He would “show up” once a year during winter for only 3-4 days. Usually changed his fight to leave a day early. Only played with teens. Ignored me or complained about me. Ganged up on me/against me. I ALWAYS stayed home with the toddler. He was tired during day and evening.

One time, last minute of course, we decided to drive to Disney from our condo in South Florida. He actually kicked me out of the house in the car in from of the kids and I can’t remember why I pissed him off other than my presence. I got quiet and wiped away my tears so kids wouldn’t see them. I looked back and my teens were shocked and sad. I smiled at them.

When we arrived, he acted like nothing happened. I was out of sorts still in shock. We got to a park and he took big kids, of course to have fun. I took my toddler and cried the entire day until we met for dinner that eveneing.

I always had major anxiety having to pick him up from airport. I knew that my fun time with kids was over……Even after he left, the energy lingered and the vacation was ruined.

Always…..